No.7255[Reply]
Holy fuck, I know none of the shit I vent about here will ever help, I am a lost fucking cause. Neo liberalism allows sad fucks like me to bypass the laws of natural selection.
I was gonna meet my friends who I've abstained from for 8 months today. I was gonna go to church and beg for the means to push though my sad state of fucking being and praise the lord for my gifts. I was gonnaq gonna study literature this year. I was gonna excell in my studies these two fucking weeks.
Today I spent all of my fucking day fucking gooning. Not giving a single fuck of awareness. Fucking GOONING. I spent the most important day for me to see the only people who have t bear my loser fucking personhood. Fuck. I want to fucking kill myself out of anger of myself. Waste of fucking time.
Its midnight now. Just finished my gooning fucking session, of building up for 8 hours. Only now it striked me, fuck my motherfucking soul. It was such a fucking giant orgasm I entered a meditative state for a minute, and all I could think of? It gave me a realization, a long time I've had such a brain numbing orgasm, I realized I've spent a year using my dick, not computers, not imageboards, not alcohol or someshit MY FUXKING DICK. IVE BEEN GOONING ALMOST EVERY FUCKINV DAY for . I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED NOTHUNG NOT OUT OG LAAZINESS, OUT OF FUCKING GOONING. FUCKIBG G O O N I N G. I've been using my fucking porb addiction anf wasted the most important fucking years of my life.
I know I'm still a faggot and will keep gooning, a gun to my wasteful skull would be good merit. I will do hypnosis as it did help plenty and shit but I doubt I will overcome my bullshit, its all just shorf delay to the eventual conclusion. Not sure if I'll sleep this night. To wake up with fresh thoughts and decide to goon again? Epictetus would kill me for natures sake, what the fuck am I doing in my life. Even now, posting this here, its complete bullshit. Holy fuck i sill ve surprised the day my death comes. My life is short term bullshit. Goodbye.
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