No.1357
It's been a little bit. I have been trying to connect with people more online, and have been very active on Discord. It's a lot of fun there, even though it can get a little on the rough side, I'm happy with the friends I have met. I still don't leave my room, and my family asked me why I haven't eaten much because the person I'm living with noticed I had not been in the kitchen or made food for myself for almost six days straight. I have a mini fridge in my room, so I try to survive off of whatever I can keep in my room to have even less reasons to need to leave. I really don't know how to break out of that habit, but I feel safe and comfortable here. In the end I just want things to get better, always feeling numb and devoid of any emotions is becoming a crippling condition, I can't even handle sunlight anymore from how sensitive my eyes have become. I have started taking supplements, and I feel sorry for being such a failure to the point I've ended up where I am, and it feels impossible to escape. Still, I will continue to try and make friends and connections online, and I'm thankful towards everybody who has kept up with my story here. I hope everyone is doing well.
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No.1358
>>1357Does your room not have windows?
No.1359
I do have a window in my room, I just hardly open my curtains because my eyes have gotten used to the computer screens and the neon lighting / dark theme I have going for my room, honestly I need to at least start opening my window to get some fresh air and get my eyes slowly adjusted to light again. I don't do well with anything these days, and just live my life behind the screen rather than doing anything at all to help myself, even something as minor as opening the curtains.
No.1361
>>1359Yeah, just pull those curtains, your eyes will adjust pretty quickly.