I always have been interested in cyberpunk and sci-fi themes.
The kinda 2cool4u haxor kinda kid.
"Man it would be cool to have AR systems irl"
"yea ima l33t h4x0r lol check out my kali"
"expoct us lol"
How ever as i reach my 20s i feel like actively rejecting the current cyberpunk reality we live in(and all fictional ones started to soud kinda shitty too),
: 3/4 of the people i know are on some mind altering substance
from rich girls becoming cocaine groupies being passed around to crackheads tweaking at a middle school parking lot, everybody its terminally online to the point that not being in social media makes you borderline socially dead, big tech and banks are waging a war against old oil giants and fundies while the middle class(who barely exists anymore) its genocided, manufactured race tensions are monetized in expense of actual problem solving, china bugmen are taking over large parts of the world, most entertainers are involved in plenty of epstein tier shit, and other garbage i sure forgot to mention.
this isnt some primitivist rant either since i think thats a cowardly retarded way of dealing with problems.
Shortly i left high school i felt really jaded thinking about everything, so for a while i read many books, studied many religions and talked to all kinds of different people only to feel extreme nihlism creeping in and i felt no past philosophy predicted this.Post too long. Click here to view the full text.